Missing my Grandmother, Generous Motherhood

My Grandmother, Me and Bishop Gerald R. Barnes
Photo of my Confirmation Day, May 29, 1993

Is mom the person who takes your clothing to the Dry Cleaner?  Is mom the housekeeper?  Is mom the person who irons, wash dishes and does your laundry without the tip at the closing of the day?

I have missed the natural grace of mother most dramatically from finding the lack of husband in the aura of my life.  People of my generation marry in the secular sense if not from the church at the last days of their decade of the twenties and towards their early thirties.  Never inclined to find a woman less independent, but most efficiently dependent on loving a man as a husband.  And how is this done in our present day generation of adults who are now in their forties in this year 2022?  

I am finding myself wishing I left caring for a divorced mother and deliver purchasing my own private property of a home and garden of my own.  The Carmelite Sisters of Most Sacred Heart of Los Angeles instructed my heart and celibate feminine generosity towards a home life that knew the simple life of home and care for a person and the dignity of any person.  It has been seriously out of hand how these forms of abortion and false mother decisions have deliberately invaded my decisions as a female person celibate and a mother through a serious dimension of care for the corporal body of any human being in my person.

The sound of Mother is well only when it is not misinterpreted by a false mother.  Yes, there are false renditions of motherhood today.  Even secular films express this well enough there are bad women who represent motherhood.

And I miss my Grandmother.  I never saw her work at home at any form of housekeeping as these renditions would offend her clarity of female motherhood and care for the dignity of the human person.  The natural grace of her domestic servitude is lost today in these paycheck days of employment and income.  In fact, the gratitude of her beauty is so well attuned by my honorable work and study as a student loved by a mother who is my grandmother; I would say, "Lola, I have straight A's because of your love for me and my dignity as a granddaughter with an intellect and will to recognize and make decisions for a future towards a motherhood for the GOOD OF THE WHOLE!"

I have found even women in the Church witnessing a Magisterial doctrine losing the essence of their motherhood in how they offered and opened their door to me under the conditions of a DAUGHTER of the CHURCH with its evident reality in the manner of present care for my person as VIRGIN for the KINGDOM!

False Motherhood:

1. The offering is only if you do something for me.
2. Mother/Daughter day is mirror mirror on the wall and I am the most fairest not you.
3. We share everything and even my age as an elderly woman is at the reposition towards a knowledge with more wisdom and your sustaining knowledge is mine and not yours.  In other words, I have the graduate degree not you.

True Motherhood:

1. I am worried that you did not have breakfast this morning, here is a muffin and orange juice for your breakfast bag tomorrow.  I love you.
2. I am very proud of your hard work.  You have my blessing to enjoy a recreation with friends this evening.  Here is some money for your engagement with friends tonight.
3. How is college life at this time?  Please come home for a week to rest and I will have your favorite dinner and room ready for you when you return for a break from school.

It has been so difficult to rest lately from these female renditions of false motherhood.  I am a daughter who wishes to leave these fake women of a model of mother.

Meryl Viola Bravo ~

Here I am, Lord, Dan Schutte