Rialto High School a Sophomore, 1994

Rialto High School, Rialto, California, 1994, Fifteen Years old, Sophomore going onto Junior

I was soon leaving the Sophomore arena of High School and entering into my Junior year of which the decision was made very clear about the path ahead.  My advisories came from senior classpersons who offered their condition and decision making in providing an insight of what was up ahead for my future endeavors in study and academia.  I am their decision.

I took their advice and reflected on what it was that I was desiring as a student receiving education in the public and state of city and government entanglement of school and education.  I became well aware of the agenda and the need to realize a serious effort to seek the form well enough to be recognized by name and by study, of which I was already seen by many of the administration of education.  What was this education of which I would be seen even further as model of student affair?

I became a study and research of which I refused to remain a standard.  And what came in at the time was a realization of human endeavors to be recognized by a human effort of condition and not by name and number of Grade Point Average.  How would a procurement of my endeavors to live in this American standard of education and appliability sustain the efforts of living up to the standard?

Well, I was confirmed in the Roman Catholic Church in 1993 and was already at a point of decision in my condition as young and very authenticated in my delivery.  It was evident to everyone there was an agenda and the agenda was a delivery of Roman Catholic and American and Educated and Female.

I am educated.

I am Roman Catholic.

I am female.

I am a teenager.

Where this education and instruction will provide is my own endeavor to hear the Word of Eternal and Condition of which no person can withstand in my delivery.

1994 to 1996, Sacred Heart Retreat House, Los Angeles, California, Junior Auxiliary Program, 15 years old

I began living my vocation as a baptized human person under the conditions of a very private decision, of which this delivery came forth as a very difficult condition towards encounter outside of study and reflection.

I did not offer my decision like an obstinate female person amidst a public identity of being a student in public and private affair of religious and nonreligious.

Was I living a different positive atmosphere from high school to my weekends at the Retreat house as a teenager?

Yes, there are decisions at the public level of which the private is never seen and this is my decision as a teenager on what I do and reflect on as a human being outside of the public consideration.

Can you as a young person notice the difficulty in reconciling this without compromising your duty as a very authenticated and integral part of being human and Roman Catholic?

I discovered that my channels of communication reflected a personal and integral part of my language and form of being in conversation while being in the public and private condition.

Do you as an individual know how to do this privately and without the incessant degree of being manipulated towards a difficult disguise?  Are you one person in one place and another face at another?

Community Service was my language when it came to what I referred to in the public scene of a very private decision.

City and State Congressional Recognition of Teen Volunteer 1995

Public Newspaper in the Sun 1995, Teen Volunteer

Did I know I was seen by the public eye in my condition as human?  Of course.  Am I a false witness to my own intentions in service?  No.

This is when it comes forth the witness and not the dilemma.

The condition is Confirmed and Sealed by a Divine Shepherd who sees all and knows all and thus, I am comforted.